Daughter of a mess

usually i need a couple of days to calm down

and i need a place of solitude

right now i have to be on fire all the time

and i can barely breathe

i'm strong, it doesn't break me again

i'm not fooled by the same things

but i'm a mess

i can't live like this

everything's a mess

the beginning's hard, the middle part i love, and the ending tears me apart

i keep on listening the same song time after time

it's a corny song and i'm not so corny after all

but still there's something lumonous in it

i have a new problem i just found

it's rushing blood, shaky hands and a treathning fear

i see all your points and i know you're right

but my mind cracks when i live waiting

to see the car, to hear the steps

and paranoia is not a friendly guest

it's rude

i keep on listening the same song time after time

it's a corny song and i'm not so corny after all

but still there's something lumonous in it

i keep on listening to a love song and the words of a chained mind

it's not exatcly how i feel, but i'm also prisoner, that's right

and when my heart beats my weight keeps on getting heavier

i know i will get out of here, but i don't believe in it

during the years everyone said you're too dramatic

you're just a child

but that was my point

it hurts me still, when the horror slips away to a normal day

and i suddenly remember how i cried

and how you didn't give a shit about it (and if you did i don't give a shit)

 

i keep on listening the same song time after time

it's a corny song and i'm not so corny after all

but still there's something lumonous in it

he took away so many things i longed for

he took away everything

and left me guilt

and he told me "don't be mean to me"

i told him to "go to hell you don't have the right"

still i'm here, daughter of a mess